Awakening: The Shedding of Skin

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David Ho

Image: David Ho

“For a seed to achieve its greatest expression, it must come completely undone. The shell cracks, its insides come out and everything changes. To someone who doesn’t understand growth, it would look like complete destruction.”

Cynthia Occelli

It has been an interesting week, or two weeks I should say, I have been quiet on the blog because I have been busy in the group, and my personal life. I also haven’t been feeling fantastic, needless to say I am feeling better today. I find the timing odd because usually this close to the Full Moon I am full on lunatic, but other than some drama within the group, and the health stuff, all has been calm.

I seem to be hotter tempered than usual, reacting at any and every thing. Until yesterday everything came to the surface and I cried it out, I yelled it out, and…

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Goddess Mari

Journeying to the Goddess

“The Sabbath of Witches” by Francisco de Goya

* For today’s entry, Patricia Telesco names “Akerbeltz” as today’s Goddess. However, my research revealed that Akerbeltz is a black he-goat known in Basque mythology to be an attribute of the Goddess Mari. [1] “From the Basque language ‘aker’ (male goat), and ‘beltz’ (black). He protects against illnesses and evil spirits and he sends beneficial force fluxes to animals placed under its protection. From his name comes the word ‘aquelarre’ that presently designs a secret meeting of evil witches adoring the Devil. But long ago, it was just an assembly of people celebrating in honour to this well-meaning being.” [2]

So, for today’s entry, I assume that Telesco’s attributes for Akerbeltz would be appropriate for the Goddess Mari, whom Akerbeltz is said to have originated from.

“Goddess Of The Rainbow” by Prairiekittin

“[Mari’s] themes are the…

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Crystal Lee Lucas4

Image: Crystal Lee Lucas

Today things are different. The darkness in the outside world has vanished, but the darkness in our hearts remains, virtually unchanged. Just like an iceberg, what we label the ego or consciousness is, for the most part, sunk in darkness. And that estrangement sometimes creates a deep contradiction or confusion within us.

Haruki Murakami

I have been rather quiet the last few days, I have not really had much to say, not to myself, to my journal, to you guys, just a silence presence had taken over me. I usually would be clawing at my skin to get the creativity out but that didn’t happen this time, and for a second I was worried; what if I suddenly lost my passion, or talent for writing, or what if I am having some breakdown? Needless to say, it was neither. I just had to work some things…

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A Conversation with the Divine

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Image: ‘Logan’ by Oli McAvoy, 2012

“The past is never where you think you left it.”

Katherine Anne Porter

The last 48 hours have caused me to become the darkest I have been in years, as I sit here now, I am still fighting tears. I allowed the tears to flow last night, and now it is like every tear that I ever held inside is pouring from these black eyes of mine. Every past mistake, every word left unspoken, all the dreams that shattered, all the possibilities coming from the depths of my soul flowing down my cheeks reminding me that I have the ability to be so much more; I have to be so much more because I am so much more.

I was certain that I was losing my mind yesterday, I couldn’t feel anyone, or anything. I could not feel or see Lucy and Gabe, I…

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You Humble Me

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Image: Mathieu Baly

“Acknowledging the good that you already have in your life is the foundation for all abundance.”

Eckhart Tolle

I know this may seem like a repetitive theme, but I am compelled to write about this topic yet again. I don’t think you guys will ever know how grateful I am to be sharing this journey with you, and more than that I am grateful that I am in a position where I can share my journey. I thought my life was stagnant and that it hit a plateau and I was never, ever going to escape that place. Then, suddenly, and without warning I was shot up into the night sky and lit on fire so that my flames became a beacon of hope for those who are seeking guidance. I know it seems like a narcissistic statement, and I suppose it is, but I am being…

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That one word…

awesome post much love

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Image: Artist Unknown

“I’m often difficult to love. I go through dark periods like the moon and I hide from myself. But I promise I will kiss your wounds when they are hurting. Even if they’re in your soul, I can find them with the light in my fingertips. I will lead you to the river, so you can remember how beautiful it feels to be moved by something that is out of your control. And when our dark periods match, we can breathe with the grass, and look at the night sky. The stars will remind of us of the beauty in our struggles and we don’t feel so lost anymore.”

Emery Allen

People have this idea of love that is so far from the reality that I feel like I am surrounded by zombies who have been killed by love, or running in fear from it. I think…

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